Within Me

There are days when I arrive with nothing but a question mark. I don't know. I don't have thoughts. I don't have words. I don't have images that might speak to all that needs to be said.

This melt into spring is happening too slowly. 

I overheard the farmer talking about his newborn kids....and the nannie goats that are expectant and waiting. His heifers - he said - will soon birth their first calves. The fields are going to need sowing.

The air is pregnant with anticipation. I can taste it.

I imagined some one watching....some one listening and hearing and seeing. And - as I turned - there she was - hiding behind a great tree…meeting my startled gaze with a calm and steady one of her own.

She comes and she goes. She's in and she's out. She's here and she's there and she's everywhere. 

Even with the endless question marks....and the I-don't-knows. Even as the seasons change. 

Always present - within me.


Best Medicine

For so many cold months they're locked up in their winter barn. And - just like that -  on one unexpected day at the end of a long unseasonably cold month....the doors open. 

Just like this.

Imagine what it it must be like to smell the spring feel the warm hear the loud cockle-doodley-doo of freedom. Imagine what it must be like for them to stretch their legs and walk again.

Some days - I laugh. It's the best medicine.


Ginger and Fred

And then - there are these mornings.

I rise to meet and greet the world with laughter and lightness and hope. A whole new day. A whole new opportunity and chance to begin. Fresh and new.

As they dance - I'm reminded of Ginger and Fred. I'm reminded of love and its enduring grace. I'm reminded that this winter is transforming itself into spring's season of mating. 

I'm thinking - I'm intruding. I'm wondering - what they might think if they knew that I am right there with them - watching. Would they continue to do what they do? Or - would they seek out a spot that allows them their peace and privacy?

And then - I decide - that I'm not going to give it too much thought. This morning - I'm dancing and celebrating right along with them.

I'm simply enjoying this moment of happy.